Good afternoon,

My name is Oyinade Koyi and I am a twenty-three year old African American female in search for what makes life grand. Today I woke up with purpose. I got up in time to get dressed and do everything I needed to do except apply my teeth whitening treatment. (We’ll talk about that later.) Unfortunately, my niece did not wake up in time and missed her school bus. It was now my responsibility to take her to school. All ready to go, my niece and I got into the car and drove off. Reaching the stop sign at the end of our block, I noticed my car was driving funny. I got out and looked at my tires and there it was, a flat. I was upset and confused. I went out last night and there was no indication that my tire was getting flat. Fortunately and without panic, I called my dad like I always do for these type of issues. He came out, put on my spare and I was quickly on the road again.

Now, that’s just today. On a daily basis, I’m constantly asking God “Why me?” For an example, I may be assigned to a group in class with people who are too uptight and are just annoying. This is a perfect time for me to look up into the heavens and ask, “Why me?” Makes sense, right? Or what about at work when I’m asked to do something that is completely out of my job description, I look up once more and ask “Why me?”

It may seem like I’m overreacting as we all go through different stressful situations of our own. However, it’s something about the stupidity that crosses paths with me on a daily basis. Not only does it frustrate me but it also makes me feel like I don’t belong. Maybe this isn’t where I should be. Maybe this isn’t what I want to be doing.

I recently read this quote on Instagram:
“Working hard for something we don’t care about is called stress; working hard for something we love is called passion.”

I find this to be one hundred percent true.

Therefore, the next series of questions I must ask myself are, What am I most passionate about? What makes me happy? What challenges me to be a better person and professional?

Well first, Who am I?

Earlier I said, “My name is Oyinade Koyi and I am a twenty-three year old African American female in search for what makes life grand.”

What exactly does that mean?

Well my name means honey and derives from a Yoruba tribe in Nigeria. I am twenty-three also known as the Jordan year. I am also really in search for what makes like so grand.

During this search I have found, I am most happy when I am alone. Not to say that I like to be alone all the time. But that is when I am most happy. When I curl up in a ball in my bed with cereal, popcorn, and a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, I am relaxed, calm and comfortable. Oh yeah, food definitely makes me happy.

I like to be on the cutting-edge of things, which basically means I like to find out things first. In today’s society, those who find things out first are the ones connected online in some way. I don’t watch television because I’m constantly searching the web, tweeting and changing my privacy settings.

I like this arena. I like how my desk can be anywhere as long as I have my MacBook. I like how I don’t have to hear other people’s voices when I’m in the middle of a deadline and trying to concentrate.

Could this be where I belong? Is this where I want to be for the rest of my life? In front of a computer attached to a username?

Maybe.

I really don’t know. I feel like I’m STILL trying to figure it all out. I’ve realized that it’s okay to say, “I don’t know.” Not every question is meant to have an exact answer at that exact moment. (Unless you’re a calculator.) Maybe it’s all about the journey. Maybe it’s all about saying, “I don’t know but I can find out.”

Yes, that’s it. Now, back to those questions.

What am I most passionate about? What makes me happy? What challenges me to be a better person and professional?

I don’t know. But I am on this journey called life to find out.